Is It A Sign?

I want to share a little strange/eerie/cool little thing that happened to me today. I have to explain a few things first though or else it'll make NO SENSE. LOL

First, I've watched probably like a hundred or more "Gotcha/Family Day" videos since starting this journey and have thought many times about what songs I'd want for our video (which I will be making myself probably). While I have a few songs picked out for an overall video, I've always had the idea of also doing a short little video just about my personal experience meeting my daughter for the first time and our first few days/weeks together (I'm sure there will be lots of crying and screaming..., oh and I'm sure the baby will be too! LOL but I'm just talking about the nice parts here). I have always thought of using the song "At Last" by Etta James. I've always loved the song (big classic R&B/Jazz fan) and while I know it's probably more of a romantic song, the lyrics I think will fit perfectly with how I will feel when the time comes, especially with this long wait. So I want to make one small video with that one song, with pics & video of me and my daughter. Everytime I listen to that song I can picture the video in my mind and I get all teary-eyed. In fact, I was just listening to it yesterday (mp3) and had to play it twice.

Second, no secret I've been a little bummed out of the rumors that it's going to take more than 3 years to even be matched. OK, alot bummed out! There were even talks of switching agencies & countries, or possibly doing a concurrent adoption from another country, but the money just isn't there for that. There was also some special needs talks, but so far, we've pretty much decided to just stay the current course and see what happens, for now.

ANYWAY, that was a lot of build up for my little 2 second moment I had today! LOL This is what happened... I was at Bed, Bath & Beyond looking around today, I had gone around the whole store and was heading for the exit when I past one of those displays that have like 10 CDs of like soundscapes, beach sounds, oldies, etc. You know the ones, the display plays a sample of one of the songs on one of the numbered CDs and then goes to the next one... Well, anyway, I was walking past the display and just glaced at a CD on the end which said "China" and that caught my eye of course. I stopped and reached for it and once I picked it up and started to look at the cover (below) which said "China, A Romantic Journey", the display started playing Etta James, "At Last". Ok now I'm tearing up again! Sheeesh!

So that was my moment. I know it'll make sense to fellow China adopters, just like ladybugs are the greatest thing since sliced bread these days. I completely believe in fate and signs and all that (not to a crazy extent or anything.. lol ) but that had to be some kind of sign that I need to just stick with China (and my "romantic journey") and one day I will actually be able make that video for my daughter. What are the chances that there would be a CD with Chinese love songs (instrumental) on the same display case as a CD of "oldies" love songs.. well.. lol ok, both love song CD.. but come on, the combination is a little strange. And what are the odds that as soon as I pick up the CD about China (not even knowing what was on the CD, I just saw "China") that Etta James would start singing "At Last" through the display??? Something special happened in that moment.

So of course, I bought the China CD. I found it also on Amazon so I listed it here.. you can play a sample of each song on the CD. I'm listening to it now. It's very soothing, sounds maybe like music that would be playing in the background of a movie.

You can listen to "At Last" here for free (might have to select the song from the list): http://www.freewebtown.com/community/mp3_playlist.php?id=10161

"At Last" - Etta James

At last my love has come along

My lonely days are over

And life is like a song

Ohh yeah yeah

At last the skies above are blue

My heart was wrapped up in clover

The night I looked at you

I found a dream, that I could speak to

A dream that I can call my own

I found a thrill to rest my cheek to

A thrill that I have never known

Ohh yeah yeah…You smile, you smile

And then the spell was cast

And here we are in heaven

For you are mine at last